Sunday, 4 October 2009

Today I decide to write an entry in my journal, a practice I hope I can continue on a daily basis.

Today began like any ordinary Sunday, until Mom broke out into some form of emotional breakdown. We were planning to go to Sunday School until this happened. We ended up just going to the service at Redland Baptist Church. This was actually the very first time I have ever heard my Mom say that she wanted to just die, a thought that actually comes to me a rather disturbingly frequent basis. Things would be so much easier if we simply did not continue to live. We wouldn't have any worries or anything like that. I know I can get depressed rather easily. Although I may think that death is an easy route, I have absolutely no intention of ending my own life. I am learning to trust God, the Creator of the universe, to bring peace to my soul that only He can bring. I am beginning to learn to really trust and obey Him.

I am also beginning to try to start organizing Andrew's bachelor party. Need to work out mainly just place and date.

I also found out that Katherine Farrell is engaged to be married. I am just trusting that God will bring a lady into my life that I can marry. I just want someone to love like that, someone to hold close, to snuggle with, to stroke her hair, to stroke her soft skin, to buy her chocolate and roses, to smell her hair, to wake up and say "I love you, and you are so beautiful", to go grocery shopping with, to carry her whenever I want while she screams and hollers against it, to dance with. Maybe I'm just one of those hopeless romantics.

I have also decided that I should keep a journal of my Bible reading. Just my thoughts and convictions. I also decided to compile a sort of document of my favorite Bible passages. I have also decided that I should read more.

I then commenced with my political science homework. How fun. I'm not sure if I really like online classes, although I must confess that the workload seems to be lighter. But I like direct interaction and discussion in the classroom, especially for subjects that I find intriguing and even entertaining.

I then went to work for four hours. Kind of silly to go to work for that short time.

After work, I finished up my political science homework, and thus my day ended.